flstandardbreds Chapter 118 The Antidote for the Abstinent Boss (33)
Chapter 118 The Antidote for the Abstinent Boss (33)
Zhou Shenye didn't make a move, so Xie Qingyu wanted to separate.
She had barely stepped back when she was pulled back into Zhou Shenye's arms, their warm, moist breaths filling the air in a silent exchange.
Xie Qingyu originally wanted to test Zhou Shenye's condition, but she didn't expect the kiss to be so intense.
At first, Zhou Shenye wandered around aimlessly, but in a short time he learned the techniques of a French kiss without any instruction.
Her subordinate held Xie Qingyu tightly in his arms. Xie Qingyu was so dazed that she didn't even know how long the kiss lasted, and she even felt a little short of breath.
When she regained consciousness, she had no idea when Zhou Shenye had carried her to sit on the sofa.
The two sat facing each other, and this time Xie Qingyu could feel the heat more clearly.
Zhou Shenye's breathing was uneven, and after they separated, all he wanted to do was hold Xie Qingyu in his arms.
Xie Qingyu rejected Zhou Shenye's advances this time, instead straightening up and trying her best to stay away from his embrace.
This way, she could see the emotions in Zhou Shenye's eyes. They weren't the burning passion of being in love, nor were they entirely restrained forbearance; instead, they carried a hint of barely perceptible despondency.
Xie Qingyu's gaze carefully scanned Zhou Shenye's face twice.
She wrapped her arms around Zhou Shenye's neck, staring directly into his eyes, not letting him look away even for a second.
"Why did you suddenly have a seizure at the restaurant?" Xie Qingyu asked seriously.
Can't lie.
This is the message conveyed through Xie Qingyu's eyes.
"I was provoked." Zhou Shenye's hoarse voice sounded like the suppressed reaction after withdrawal.
"What triggered me?" Xie Qingyu wondered, trying to recall what had happened before she returned to the private room.
Zhou Shenye didn't leave the private room, so she probably didn't know what was happening outside. However, she didn't close the door when she went out, so she could only see the scene outside the room.
Their private room was located very far inside, offering excellent privacy.
Xie Qingyu recalled, and something seemed to flash through her mind.
Her gaze toward Zhou Shenye gradually became resolute, tinged with a barely perceptible hint of heartache.
She carefully chose her words before speaking, "Was your illness caused by some kind of trauma in your childhood?"
Perhaps feeling that her statement was not quite right, Xie Qingyu added, "I'm not just referring to skin hunger syndrome."
Zhou Shenye's gaze toward Xie Qingyu gradually became serious. A smile formed under Xie Qingyu's gaze, but then disappeared.
Feeling as if a shackle had been placed on Zhou Shenye, Xie Qingyu's heart clenched; she had guessed correctly.
"So smart." Zhou Shenye never hesitated to praise Xie Qingyu.
"Can you tell me now? Or when you want to?" Xie Qingyu gave Zhou Shenye enough decision-making power, as if she could accept whatever decision he made and would no longer interfere.
Zhou Shenye's fingertips twitched.
Without anyone noticing, the hand that had been resting on Xie Qingyu's lower back tightened, pulling her into an embrace.
With his other hand stroking Xie Qingyu's hair, Zhou Shenye's gaze passed over the coffee table in front of him, as if he were seeing another scene.
The living room was a mess, with bottles of liquor scattered everywhere.
The sounds of men and women flirting.
Clothes that have been taken off can be seen everywhere.
And the boy tied to the table leg watched everything that happened.
Golden or red hair, various bodies, and the boy's numb expression as he looked at them.
Some things can make people lose their minds when they're excited, and also make them make promises when they're sober.
The boy became silent and unapproachable amidst his sober apologies and the hurt caused by his heightened state.
That kind of intimate, physical, disgusting contact.
Even though it only lasted a year, it left behind a trauma that has never healed.
Even in the dead of night, Zhou Shenye still dreams of that scene and his own helplessness.
Before the age of 6, Zhou Shenye was taken abroad by her biological mother to live. Having experienced an extremely wealthy life, she began to seek excitement in life after leaving her old man and possessing endless wealth.
And so he became tainted by something that makes people lose their minds.
Zhou Shenye, who followed her, experienced an inhuman year.
The parties in the villa, attended by men and women, always escalated into a huge frenzy at the end, with no one paying attention to the boys who witnessed it.
Or perhaps some men, caught up in their own desires, had inappropriate thoughts.
Even the old man Zhou, who personally brought Zhou Shenye back, didn't know much about Zhou Shenye's experiences at that time.
All that is known is that the son, who displayed extraordinary talent after returning home, did not have a good life that year.
This is one of the reasons why Grandpa Zhou tolerated many of Zhou Shenye's behaviors later on; he felt sorry for the boy.
Of course, this situation rarely occurs. Most of the time, Grandpa Zhou would only feel proud that when he received a call from little Zhou Shenye, he did not hang up but went to pick him up immediately.
Otherwise, the Zhou family wouldn't have such an outstanding heir.
When Zhou Shenye recounted these past events, they lacked any narrative appeal.
It was as if he were stating something that had nothing to do with him.
No one would know that his illness had become complicated after that incident.
On one hand, there is an intense longing for human contact; on the other hand, there is a feeling of disgust and irritability whenever one encounters a person.
Childhood was probably the hardest time; I felt miserable and wanted to reach out, but I couldn't reach anyone.
Later, it must have been painful, especially as I grew older and became more able to understand what that scene meant—such disgusting things, especially with my mother in front of me with men I didn't even know.
That psychological aversion spread to the physical body.
Even though my thinking has matured and I've tried my best to convince myself to accept it, I still can't get over that hurdle.
It was like an invisible shackle, trapping him forever in that time.
"So what caused you to be upset at the restaurant?" Xie Qingyu asked softly.
"I saw that scene."
Which scenario?
Xie Qingyu could roughly understand after a little thought that in the dimly lit corridor, someone might have thought that some intimate behavior was being secretly witnessed by Zhou Shenye, who was already having a relapse.
"So how do you feel now? Are you disgusted?" Xie Qingyu moved slightly, not looking at Zhou Shenye's expression, but waiting for his answer.
Zhou Shenye remained silent, his hands slowly tightening around Xie Qingyu's waist.
Xie Qingyu sensed something was wrong with him while they were at the restaurant.
So much so that she took the initiative to kiss him to verify, and Zhou Shenye's current reaction was more like a silent indulgence and a plea.