Forced love, an inescapable fate

Chapter 147: The Big Dream Still Can’t Be Let Go

"no, do not want......"

Mu Qingli suddenly woke up from her sleep, sweating profusely. Her clothes were soaked with cold sweat, but she was completely unaware. She only felt her heart beating so fast that it seemed like it was about to jump out of her mouth.

Then she felt a sharp pain in her body, which made her gasp.

At this time, the charcoal fire in the charcoal brazier in the room was burning brightly, and the sky was already bright.

The whole room was warm and quiet, so quiet that one could almost hear her pounding heartbeat.

For a moment, she couldn't react whether the scene in her mind was real or a dream.

Finally, because of the pain in my body, I realized that the scene that was still echoing in my mind was probably just a dream.

But why do I have such a dream?

And this dream was unbelievably real.

It was so real that it felt like she had experienced it herself.

So, she really did care about what Jiang Ci said in front of everyone yesterday, and she kept it in her heart.

She lay on the bed, buried her face deeply in the pillow, trying hard to forget the scene in her mind, but she couldn't. Even the paranoid and indifferent eyes of Jiang Ci in the dream kept appearing in her mind.

The chest felt heavy as if being pressed by a heavy object.

The pain is beyond words.

She never thought that things would develop like this today.

So, what should we do?

Why did he say those words in front of everyone yesterday?

But hasn’t Jiang Ci been using me all along?

What was the reason for what you said yesterday?

He likes himself, why?

Could it be that he had a misunderstanding during the two years we spent together in Dongli Town?

How is that possible? He was just a child at that time. Besides, I treated him as a younger brother sincerely and did not do anything that would cause him to misunderstand.

Could it be during the three years when we exchanged letters at the border?

That was impossible. They couldn't even see each other at that time. What's more, that was probably the most difficult time for him in Shangjing. How could he have the time and energy to do that?

If it is said that he was back in Beijing for just a short six months, that would be even more impossible.

She was in a coma for half of the time, and Jiang Ci was not in Beijing for the other half. Later, because of the truth of that year, they broke up.

So, when did the liking he talked about begin?

Which of my actions caused him to misunderstand?

Or maybe he just wanted to save himself yesterday or he wanted to overthrow the Imperial Noble Consort.

Yes, that must be the case.

He has always been deep-minded and would do anything to achieve his own goals. How could he possibly like me? He clearly admitted a few days ago that everything he did was to use me to gain Feng Zong's support.

Therefore, he must have had other purposes when he said in front of everyone yesterday that he liked me.

Yes, that must be the case.

When thinking of this, Mu Qingli felt that the uneasiness in his heart was much less.

Then he became even more certain.

Thinking about how he had nearly lost half his life twice in just six months because of him, this time he had added new injuries to the old ones.

So even if he saved me yesterday, it still didn't matter. All this was caused by him.

So I must find a way to keep my distance from him in the future to avoid being implicated by him again.

She also thought about how Emperor Jing had mentioned her marriage to Su Minsheng yesterday, so it was now completely on the agenda.

But she is not ready to get married yet.

Moreover, for her, Su Minsheng really just felt more grateful than fond of her.

It seems that since returning to Shangjing, every step I take is like being led by the nose, and I have no control over myself.

No one cares about her feelings, and even her marriage was forced upon her.

For a moment, I just felt even more uncomfortable.

It's also inexplicably sad.

During these five years or so, the most comfortable and fearless days I had were probably the two years I spent in Dongli Town.

Although it was hard at that time, I was free both physically and mentally and could do whatever I wanted. But now, it feels like I’m in a cage.

Not only do you lose your freedom, but even your own safety cannot be guaranteed.

It's really frustrating.

If I had the chance, I really want to leave here, take Wanyue and Xiaotao with me, go to a place where no one knows me, and do what I want to do.

Instead of being trapped in this world and feeling depressed.

I used to think that by returning to Shangjing, I would be able to witness Jiang Ci grow up step by step and get the position he wanted.

But in the end, I found myself as naive as a joke.

When I think about the past, I feel a lump in my nose. It's like a dream, and I still can't let it go.

Now I am covered in wounds and exhausted both physically and mentally. If I could, I really want to escape.

......

However, once this idea sprouts, it will slowly expand in the mind until it sprouts and grows.

So during the days of recuperation, the desire to leave Shangjing became stronger and stronger.

But every time Su Minsheng came to the mansion to treat her, and she saw his clean and gentle face, she always wondered where he would be if he really left.

What's more, Emperor Jing has given the order personally. If you run away, it will be considered as disobeying the imperial order.

After thinking about it, I can only suppress this idea in my heart for the time being.

Jiang Ci didn't come again, but just asked someone to send a lot of supplements.

This also made Mu Qingli feel less worried.

Ten days have passed since I entered the palace that day. Except for the wound on my back which still looks a bit shocking, the rest has almost recovered. Now I don’t have to sleep on my stomach in bed every day. As long as I don’t touch the wound on my back, I can sleep on my side.

Every day at the hour of Si, Su Minsheng would come to the house on time to diagnose and take her pulse. With the blood-clearing and blood-stasis-removing medicine combined with his acupuncture skills, her body recovered very quickly.

After the acupuncture, a thin layer of sweat appeared on her forehead, and Su Minsheng gently wiped the sweat off her forehead with a handkerchief.

However, because of this action, Mu Qingli felt a little unnatural on his face.

Since the arranged marriage, apart from a little inexplicable awkwardness when seeing him for the first time, the two of them got along just as well as before. No one mentioned the marriage, and they got along as naturally and casually as friends.

But in Su Minsheng's eyes, there was always some more friendship that had been deliberately suppressed before.

Seeing Mu Qingli's unnatural expression, his hand paused, and then he withdrew awkwardly.

"Sorry, Ali, I just saw that you were sweating, so..."

Fortunately, Mu Qingli quickly adjusted her expression and then smiled gently.

"It's okay, Brother Su. I just had the acupuncture. It's just a little painful. You know, I'm most afraid of pain."

Su Minsheng understood that Mu Qingli's explanation was to avoid embarrassment.

Thinking about their marriage, I feel mixed emotions.