flstandardbreds Chapter 143: Spiritual Guidance
Chapter 143: Spiritual Guidance
The night falls slowly over the campus like a huge black curtain, but the campus is brightly lit. The colorful and shining lights are like youthful and energetic elves jumping, showing the unique youthful atmosphere of the campus.
However, in the midst of all the hustle and bustle and vitality, Youyou was extremely upset.
The belief that Youyou had held on to for many years now collapsed like a castle and turned into ruins.
She fell into deep confusion, not knowing whether her persistence over the years was a true protection or just a possessive desire that she was unwilling to let go.
Now, she wants to let go, but her heart seems to be entangled by thousands of silk threads, each thread is connected to her reluctance and unwillingness; if she continues to insist, she knows clearly that it will undoubtedly be a harm to Brother Xiaoji and Brother Cheng Yu.
Her thoughts involuntarily drifted back to the past. If Brother Xiaoji had not donated bone marrow to her, would she not have fallen into a coma?
If Brother Xiaoji had not been in a coma, he would not have been trapped in Jiang Chengyu's body, and there would not have been all these complicated experiences between them later, and he would not have had all these intricate relationships with him.
However, Youyou knew in her heart that without the donation from brother Xiaoji, she might not have lived long.
But even so, she couldn't help thinking that at least then Brother Xiaoji would be hers alone, and she wouldn't have to go to great lengths to compete with others for him like she did now.
"Youyou..." A warm and magnetic voice suddenly sounded, interrupting Youyou's thoughts.
When Youyou heard the voice behind her, she tried to put away her messy thoughts, but her moist eyes betrayed her inner turmoil. She took a deep breath, as if to swallow all the grievances and entanglements back into her stomach.
"Youyou, are you okay?" the owner of the voice asked with concern.
At this moment, Youyou was like a homeless ghost, with a dull look in her eyes, and she just shook her head gently.
Her eyes slowly swept across the people who were chatting in groups of three or five on campus, and from time to time she heard the laughter and noises of men and women.
To Youyou, those laughs sounded so harsh, as if they were a mockery of her lonely heart.
"Youyou, do you like Mu very much?" Coleville asked softly.
Youyou then slowly turned her head to look at him. Coleman's skin was as white as the finest mutton-fat jade, and his slightly light blue eyes were full of tenderness at the moment. That gentle gaze was like a clear spring, gently sprinkling on Youyou's heart.
Youyou looked dejected and said in a low voice: "So what? He doesn't need my love at all now. There are people who can do better than me."
"Youyou, the person you are referring to is Kate, right?" Coleville's voice was still gentle.
Youyou looked into his eyes, like a child who had done something wrong and whose thoughts were seen through, and lowered her eyes helplessly.
Coleville sighed softly and said slowly: "In our country, same-sex marriage is respected. It is obvious that there is a story between the two of them.
Although I don't know what they have been through, I can tell from the look in their eyes when they communicate with each other. Their eyes seem to contain thousands of words, and the information they convey is much more than what can be communicated with words.
They are like a pair of soul mates. They don't need too many words to let each other know clearly what the other is thinking and what to do next.
Do you know, Youyou? The real distance between two people in love is not the physical distance, but whether the other person understands you in their heart. "
The evening breeze blew, and Youyou felt a chill coming over her. She unconsciously crossed her arms. Her empty eyes looked toward the distant sky. In the vast starry sky, those twinkling stars were like countless pairs of eyes, as if quietly telling Youyou's inner emptiness and confusion about the unknown tomorrow.
Coleman saw it and felt pain in his heart. He took off his coat without hesitation and gently put it on Youyou.
But Youyou was like a stubborn little animal, subconsciously preparing to take it off. Coleman quickly held Youyou's shoulders with both hands and asked her to face him.
Coleman looked extremely serious, staring closely at Youyou's eyes, and said, "Youyou, you should know that you are a unique individual in this world, and your beautiful heart is like the clearest and brightest eyes in the world.
You actually know very well what you want, and you also know what you have been holding on to. Your feelings for Mu are not actually the kind of love between men and women, but just a habitual persistence.
You see him always devoting himself, so you subconsciously follow his example. Although you have been in medical school for more than half a year and your grades are very good, I know that you don't like this profession.
You are imposing the responsibilities of this profession on yourself, and you just want to support him silently from behind like he does in saving others.
Youyou, from now on, just be yourself, okay? Let me protect the real Youyou, okay? "
Youyou looked into Coleville's eyes, and there began to be a slight fluctuation in her eyes, like ripples on the calm lake, and she fell into deep thought.
The night is as peaceful as a deep lake. The flowers, plants and trees sway gently in the breeze, like elves dancing in the quiet night. However, it also adds a touch of messy thoughts entangled like silk threads to this peaceful night.
In the room, Jiang Chengyu leaned quietly against the mattress, holding Mu Xiaoji tenderly in his arms. Mu Xiaoji seemed a little weak, and coughed from time to time. The sound was particularly abrupt in the quiet room, like a stone breaking the calm surface of a lake.
Jiang Chengyu frowned slightly and asked softly: "You are worrying about nonsense again!" His voice was helpless, yet full of doting.
Mu Xiaoji raised his head, with a hint of stubbornness in his eyes, and retorted: "Why should I worry about you for nothing? Look at you, you always try to escape, and run away if you don't want to. I have to appease you, this little monster. If one day you really leave, where can I find you? You are like a child who has not grown up, always making me worry."
Jiang Chengyu heaved a long sigh of relief after hearing this. His face showed an exhausted expression, and he slowly said, "I'm not leaving, even if you kill me!
You have no idea how scared I was since your condition worsened last time. I did my best to save you on the operating table, and went through untold hardships to bring you back from the brink of death.
I stayed in the intensive care unit with you for a week without leaving, and secretly swore that as long as God brought you back, I would forget all the unpleasantness of the past.
From now on, even if you beat me to death, I won't argue with you! I will do whatever you say, and I will do whatever you tell me to do, and I will never go against your wishes again! As long as you are alive and well, I don't care what happens to me. "
After hearing this, Mu Xiaoji's heart seemed to be touched by something, and a wave of bitterness surged in his heart. He said with some self-blame: "Little demon beast...you, are you disappointed by my tyranny?"
Jiang Chengyu quickly shook his head, hugged Mu Xiaoji tightly, and replied: "No, don't think too much. Let's go back to China? I don't have anything serious to do here. After returning to China, Renxin Hospital will be your property. At least I can put my strength into practice and do something meaningful."
Mu Xiaoji thought about it, nodded and said, "Okay, I've almost submitted my thesis and some assessments. It's New Year's Day soon, let's go pick up Youyou. She's been living in school for almost two months, so she should have figured it out, right?"
Jiang Chengyu frowned slightly and said with some concern: "Every time I send something over, she asks Keleweiler to go out and get it. It can be seen that Keleweiler likes Youyou very much. Xiaoji, do you think Youyou can accept Keleweiler?"
Mu Xiaoji pondered for a while and said slowly: "Love has no borders. Besides, Coleville is not bad and has a rich family background. If Youyou can let go of the past, Coleville is also a good choice. But I don't know if the knot in Youyou's heart can be untied so easily."
Jiang Chengyu nodded gently, with a hint of worry in his eyes. He looked at the swaying trees outside the window, as if thinking about something.
Youyou stood there quietly. After Coleville's sincere and warm guidance, her originally tangled thoughts seemed to be gently combed by an invisible hand and gradually became clear.
The complex and deep feelings she had for Brother Xiaoji were like a tightly entwined vine that could not be uprooted all at once. But at this moment, it was as if the sunlight had penetrated through the cracks, and she felt much brighter.
Coleweiler looked quietly into Youyou's eyes, and saw a hint of relief flickering in them. The corners of his mouth rose unconsciously.
Then, he gently stretched out his hand and put his arm around Youyou's shoulders. The movement was gentle and natural, as if he was afraid to disturb Youyou's heart which had just calmed down.
Youyou was slightly shocked, but did not resist. She let Coleweiler hug her like this, as if she felt a sense of security from him that she had never felt before.
They walked slowly in the garden on campus.
The garden was filled with the mixed fragrance of various flowers. The evening breeze blew gently, and the flowers and branches seemed to be whispering and making rustling sounds.
The moonlight shines through the mottled leaves and onto the ground, forming silver spots, like broken mirrors on the ground.
Coleville turned his head to look at Youyou, his eyes full of tenderness, and he said softly: "Youyou, look at this garden, every flower has its own beauty, and every blade of grass has its own unique vitality, just like everyone has his or her own life trajectory.
You don’t need to keep yourself trapped in past emotions. You can also be like these flowers and plants, stretching freely and blooming with your own brilliance.”
Youyou raised her head slightly, her eyes wandering around the garden. She saw a half-opened flower swaying gently in the breeze, as if trying hard to bloom.
She nodded gently and said in a low voice, "Mr. Coleman, I know what you said is right, but some things cannot be put down just by saying so. I need some time."
Coleville gently squeezed Youyou's shoulders, giving her some encouragement.
Response: "I know, Youyou. I will always be by your side, to help you through this time. No matter how long it takes you, I will be here."
A warm current surged in Youyou's heart. She looked at Coleville with gratitude, and then cast her eyes into the distance. At this time, although she still felt a little melancholy in her heart, she also had a little expectation for the future.