flstandardbreds Chapter 110 You Don't Have to Apologize to Me
Chapter 110 You Don't Have to Apologize to Me
Chapter 110 You Don't Have to Apologize to Me
"Take care of the child's mother, then find a job and raise my daughter." Qin Chuyu said concisely.
Ye Yaer frowned: "Then can't you ask your family to help you take care of the children? Then it won't be too late to go out and work! I remember when I went to your school to find you, your counselor said that you were only taking a year off, you can continue studying! Why give up?"
"Besides, doesn't she have a mother? I heard that she is older than you. You can let her help you take care of the child first. When you finish your studies and then work, your job prospects will be much better than they are now! Raising a child won't be that hard."
Ye Yaer didn't know that her words directly opened up the scar in Qin Chuyu's heart.
For the first time, he showed a mocking tone to Ye Yaer: "It's easy for you to say that. I am 19 years old and have two children. My family members don't recognize me, my relatives don't recognize me, and the villagers don't tolerate us. The mother of the children suffers from postpartum depression and doesn't plan to raise these two children. What can I do? What should I do?"
"I also want to go to school. I also want to finish the university I've always wanted to go to. I also know that it will be easier to find a job after graduating from university, and the salary will be higher. But at that time, if I chose to study, my two newborn daughters would have to go to an orphanage!"
"They have a father and a mother, but they were sent to an orphanage. Don't you think this is ironic and cruel to my two newborn children?"
Hearing Qin Chuyu's words, Ye Yaer was shocked for a moment, and it took her a while to recover. She said, "You could have come to me at that time! I could have asked my family to help you find an easier job, so you could make money and take care of your daughter. Maybe you could even..."
Having said this, Ye Yaer's voice stopped abruptly.
Because she suddenly remembered that the relationship between her and Qin Chuyu was no longer as good as before.
Even if she was willing to help Qin Chuyu, given Qin Chuyu's personality, he might not ask her for help.
She took a breath and said, "It's okay now. Being a teacher is indeed good, but it's a bit difficult to raise two children. As long as you ask, I still have some connections here."
"I know that you don't have a good relationship with your daughters' mother..."
Qin Chuyu raised his eyebrows: "Are you investigating me?"
Ye Yaer smiled slightly: "Do we need to investigate this? If the relationship between you two is good, you don't have to run away from home to raise your daughter, and you don't have to sacrifice your studies."
"Also, the last time we met, I could sense that you had no feelings for the child's mother. I could even say that you felt a little disgusted with her. This is probably because she abandoned you and your daughter, right?"
Qin Chuyu's expression was calm: "You are very confident."
Regarding this, Ye Yaer was a little proud: "After all, we have been friends for so many years. I can say that I may not be the one who knows you best, but I am definitely one of the people who understands your personality."
"Given your temper and personality, you would never dislike the child's mother so much, let alone hate her, unless she did something too extreme. And what I can think of is that she dragged you away from school six years ago and you were forced to run away from home with your daughter. That's why you dislike her so much, right?"
"After all, if this happened to anyone, no one would easily forgive the other person."
Qin Chuyu curled her lips and said nothing, because Ye Yaer was right.
But that's not entirely true.
At this point, Ye Yaer looked at Qin Chuyu with a much softer look, and said: "Chuyu, what happened back then...I was wrong. I didn't consider your feelings. I apologize to you now. I have been looking for you for the past five years, just to say sorry to you, but I couldn't find you."
"I thought everything was beyond repair, but fortunately, I was able to meet you. Chu Yu, if possible, I want to..."
"Stop."
Qin Chuyu interrupted Ye Yaer's words, which she had thought about countless times, and said, "You didn't do anything wrong at the beginning. We were just friends and classmates at that time. I didn't have the right to stop you from dating. It was normal and understandable for you to date at that time, so you don't have to feel sorry for me or apologize to me."
Ye Yaer was stunned. "But, wasn't the reason you did that in the first place because you liked me? After you knew I was in a relationship, you later..."
"I like you, that's my business, and your relationship is your business."
Qin Chuyu said: "There is no connection between the two. The reason why I became like that is because I wanted to be that kind of person. It has nothing to do with you. Yes, I admit that I liked you at that time, and it was also because you suddenly fell in love, and I couldn't accept it."
"But what does it have to do with you? I told you that we were just friends and classmates at that time. I had no right to stop you from dating and being with the person you liked. I was just being sentimental and you can't blame anyone."
"I can tell you the truth. I have never resented you for that incident, nor have I ever complained about you. Not in my heart. The one I have always resented and complained about is myself."
Qin Chuyu paused and continued, "Actually, looking back now, I couldn't do anything at the time, and I couldn't give you anything. Even if I liked you at that time, I could only express my feelings to you verbally, say a few roundabout words of love, or write you a love letter."
"What's the result? I can't even move you. You threw my words of love into the wind and my love letter into the trash. What's the point?"
"In the end, I was incompetent at that time, and I was too immersed in fantasy. I could even say I was too self-righteous."
Qin Chuyu smiled self-deprecatingly: "At that time, I always thought that after I graduated from college, I would find a good job with a stable income, be able to give you a good life, and then I would confess my love to you seriously, and maybe we could be together."
"Actually, that was also a sign of my cowardice, a way of avoiding you from accepting me. For someone like me who is incompetent, a bit cowardly and self-deprecating, isn't it normal for me to lose the person I like?"
"So, I don't blame you. I blame myself for being weak and incompetent. If I had been braver and more decisive, and had less fantasy, and had directly told you the truth or had given up when you repeatedly rejected me, then there wouldn't have been so many problems."
Looking at Qin Chuyu in front of her, whose expression was as calm as an ancient well and who spoke those inner words without a care in the world, Ye Yaer felt uncomfortable for some reason. She didn't want to believe that these were the words of the man who once had eyes only for her.
She would rather see Qin Chuyu getting emotional, scolding her, blaming her, and throwing all the grievances of the past five years on her than being calm like this. It would be much better.
Because that would at least prove that Qin Chuyu still had her in his heart, and she still had a chance.
But the fact that Qin Chuyu could calmly speak his true feelings and say that he had let go meant that he had completely let go and it was very likely that she no longer existed in his heart.
"No, no! That's not the case!"
Ye Yaer bit her lip, shook her head, and said, "At the beginning, I clearly knew that you liked me and cared about me, but I not only kept you in suspense and enjoyed your gentleness towards me, but was unwilling to accept your love. I turned a blind eye to your repeated hints and overtures, and even in that situation, because of my own willfulness, I had an unnecessary online romance!"
"I'm wrong for indirectly hurting you because of this! At least, even if I want to have a relationship, I should tell you clearly and discuss it with you. Even if I reject you directly, I can still consider myself innocent!"
"But I was too greedy at that time. I knew you liked me, but I turned a blind eye and played dumb. Not only did I deny in front of outsiders that you liked me, but I actually liked you too. I even thought that we could be in love and enjoy your tenderness at the same time. This is where I went wrong!"