Stardust in the Moonlight: Little Wildcat, Don't Try to Run Away

Chapter 163: I’m jealous of myself

I hugged Mo Chen and pressed tightly against his back.

"I'm sorry." I tightened my arms and held Mo Chen tightly.

"I shouldn't have questioned your feelings for me. I was just blinded by jealousy. When I saw you and Xia Xiluo together, whether it was when you were kids or now, I was madly jealous of her."

I swallowed the lump in my throat.

"It's not you, it's me! I wish you were something of mine, how nice it would be, I could hide you from anyone, I just want you to be mine. It's my possessiveness that's at work, I'm too selfish."

I hugged Mo Chen tightly and buried my face in his back.

"Mo Chen, forgive me..."

Mo Chen pulled my arm away and turned to face me.

His fingers brushed across my eyes.

"You don't need to apologize. No matter who said what or what you saw, if you are affected, it must be my fault. If I give you enough sense of security, no one can affect you."

Mo Chen's hands stroked my face, and his eyes stared at me affectionately and firmly.

"You have to remember that I will never leave you because of your shortcomings. Besides, in my eyes, there is nothing wrong with you."

"Maybe you think that some of your past experiences are terrible, and you are afraid to be mentioned. But when I understand what you have been through, besides feeling sorry for you, I am also grateful and glad that you did not give up on yourself at that time. No matter what method you used at that time, whether it was paranoia or madness, you bravely stuck to yourself and made you what you are today."

"You don't know, I've never met a person like you who is free, unrestrained, brave, decisive, and serious and focused. You have so many qualities that have always attracted me deeply."

A hint of smile appeared in the corners of Mo Chen's affectionate eyes.

"Do you know why I want you to confess to me?"

I shook my head.

"Because I'm afraid, afraid that you're just acting with me, afraid that you're just perfunctory with me. You're so resistant to intimacy. As long as you don't accept me in your heart, I'll be unable to trap you one day, and you'll use various methods to leave me. Only if you truly accept me in your heart can I really get you. I need to get confirmation and affirmation from you before I can feel at ease."

"In our relationship, the one who was trembling with fear was never you, but me. Think about it carefully. From the time I met you until now, I have put so much thought and effort into you to keep you by my side.

"When you lead me around, and you get angry or want to leave, isn't it always me who is fidgeting? You are the one in the upper position in the relationship, what is there to be afraid of..."

Mo Chen's eyes were fixed on me tenderly.

"If you still have doubts, I'm not afraid of you coming to me to confirm from time to time. I will patiently prove to you again and again! How important you are to me."

Listening to Mo Chen's extremely gentle tone, I could hardly control my tears. How could I question such a passionate emotion? I was too confused.

Mo Chen gently wiped the tears from my face.

"You said you were jealous of my past..."

Mo Chen chuckled helplessly.

"Those seemingly gorgeous appearances are full of hypocrisy, flattery, and fawning. What is there to be jealous of..."

"Hao Weiran is right. The people around us can only make us feel fake and bored. They are meaningless. I am also good at calculating and selfish..."

"But you are different. Your world is clean and pure. You never hide your likes and dislikes. I am really jealous. I am jealous of everyone who has had an intersection with you. No matter what their purpose is, your feelings are real..."

Mo Chen lowered his eyes.

"So today... I am really jealous of Hao Weiran. Why did he know you when you were so young, get in touch with you, and keep leaving his traces in your life? If he really got you before me, then I..."

"Mo Chen!" I held Mo Chen's face and watched the melancholy gradually creeping into his eyes. My heart felt like it was being pressed down by something and I felt very uncomfortable.

Mo Chen came back to his senses and looked at me.

"It's you I love, and it's always been only you! I may have liked a few people before, but I told you that for me, liking and loving are two different things. The only one I've always loved is you!"

After I finished speaking, tender love rolled in Mo Chen's eyes. His eyes were the most beautiful pair of eyes I had ever seen.

"Rongyue, I admit that I am selfish. I only want to keep you by my side. I don't want anyone else to possess even a single minute of your life. I have missed too much with you. From now on, you can only be mine."

He became bossy again. I smiled and sniffed, "Well... we two selfish paranoids can only be with each other!"

Mo Chen looked at me and smiled, holding my face with both hands.

I put my arms around Mo Chen's neck, pulled him towards me, and kissed him on the lips.

After a long time, I slightly moved away from Mo Chen's lips and stopped the lingering kiss on my lips.

"Going home?" I looked at Mo Chen.

Mo Chen smiled, rubbed my lips with his fingertips, and pecked them gently.

"I'll go to Grandpa's place, so I can have a meal with him and get some things I want."

Mo Chen took me back to Li Xin's car.

Li Xin looked at us and smiled.

"Let's go to grandpa's house." Mo Chen hugged me and looked at Li Xin.

"We can go anywhere! But I have to warn you in advance that no dog food is allowed in my car!"

I thought of the kiss I had just had with Mo Chen, I covered my face and was pulled into his arms.

All three of us smiled.

… …

"How come you three have time to come here today?" Grandpa looked at us with a smile.

"Grandpa, I remember you said Rongyue was very naughty when she was little. Have you been paying attention to her since she was very young?"

Mo Chen looked at his grandfather.

Grandpa nodded. "Indeed, I have been paying attention to her since she was very young, around 3 or 4 years old. Although she was small at that time, she dared to do anything. She climbed all the trees around her grandmother's house. Her grandmother had no choice but to tie her up with a rope sometimes, fearing that she would run away by herself."

Grandpa laughed as he said this.

Mo Chen and Li Xin also looked at me and smiled.

I was completely confused. I was too young at that time to remember it!

"Grandpa, since you have photos of Rongyue during her college years, do you have photos of her when she was younger?"

Mo Chen's eyes were bright and full of anticipation.

So he came to Grandpa to ask for this. I really...

I looked at Li Xin helplessly, and Li Xin also looked at Mo Chen with a funny expression.

"Why do you suddenly want these?" Grandpa didn't understand either.

"I want to see it, starting from the first photo you took of Rongyue."

I pulled Mo Chen and asked, "What are you looking at?"

"Grandpa, please take it out and show it to us. This love-brained guy won't give up if he doesn't see his wife's childhood photo today." Li Xin took a sip of tea. "Actually, I'm also very curious."

After saying this, Li Xin looked at me.

Grandpa looked helpless. He glanced at the housekeeper, who soon brought over several notebooks with different ages marked on them.

My God, my family doesn’t have so many photos of me. My grandma has never taken a photo of me, but my grandpa has so many photos!

Not to mention Mo Chen and Li Xin, I myself am curious about what I looked like when I was a child.

We each took a booklet and flipped through it.

"Don't be fooled by the fact that you, Li Xin, and Xi Luo were all so pretty and delicately dressed when you were little, but Rong Yue was the cutest little girl I've ever seen. She was very round and plump when she was little, but she always made herself dirty! Look at that."

Grandpa put a photo on the table and we all looked at it.

I was about three years old. You could indeed see my chubby arms and round face through the gaps in the mud. My hair was very long even at that age. I let my hair down and smiled as I smeared the mud in my hands on the face of the crying child in front of me.

"You're so young and you already know how to bully others!" Li Xin looked at me and smiled.

"What else? Does age have a role in suffering a loss? Why should I suffer a loss?"

Grandpa, Mo Chen and Li Xin all laughed, and the housekeeper couldn't help laughing as well.

"Young Madam, it is true that you have never suffered any loss since childhood. It's okay if it's you in the photo, but as long as there are others, it must be her who is bullying them." Uncle Guan said with a smile.

Everyone was smiling.

"You can't say she has never suffered before. Look at the stings on her face! She doesn't suffer from other children, but she has suffered a lot from these little animals!"

Grandpa put a few more photos on the table for us to see.

I looked over and saw my grandma with a sad face, holding a kitten in her hands. At that time, I must have just become a cat, and I was very excited. I accidentally dropped a hornet's nest from the tree to the ground, and then I got stung and my whole body was swollen, especially my face, which was so swollen that I couldn't see my eyes.

There was also a time when he chased a gosling, and ended up being chased and pecked by a big goose, and his feathers were almost pecked off.

There is also the scene of him frantically climbing a tree while being chased by a group of dogs.

Li Xin was already laughing as he fell on the table while holding my photo.

I put the photos away with an awkward smile. It’s better not to look at these battle damage photos.

Mo Chen's hands were around my head, pulling me towards him. He was still smiling and kissed me. "How can you be so cute!"

My grandfather would occasionally hold up photos and tell stories about me, mostly embarrassing ones, and everyone was so happy for me when I was a kid.

I was happy too. Looking at their smiles, I felt that I was indeed very cute when I was a child.

"Is this high school? What are you looking at? So serious." Mo Chen touched my face in the photo with his fingers.

I leaned over to take a look and saw myself standing under a tree, looking up slightly and looking at something seriously.

I recalled the situation at that time.

"I think he's looking at Apple."

"See the apple?"

Li Xin and Grandpa looked at me in confusion.

I nodded. "Yes! I was practicing drawing apples at the time. I passed by an orchard and happened to see an apple tree. The apples on the tree were illuminated by the sun and looked very beautiful. The sun was changing, and the light and shadow of the apples changed with it. I looked at the apples all day that day, and went home when I couldn't see them anymore at night."

"Can you just look at an apple for a whole day? Won't you be tired?" Li Xin looked at me in surprise.

"Well, I just realized my legs were numb when I was about to go home that night. It took me a while to recover before I could walk. I didn't feel anything else."

"You are really weird. Can you just watch for a while?" Li Xin looked at me.

"What do you know!" Mo Chen looked at Li Xin arrogantly.

"You understand! Love brain! If you understand, just say it!" Li Xin looked at Mo Chen helplessly.

"Why should I tell you! We've already finished our meal! Why haven't you gone home yet? Why do you want to look at my wife's photo! Give it to me!" Mo Chen said as he went to take the booklet from Li Xin's hand.

Li Xin took the booklet and dodged Mo Chen's hand. "Love-brained, you're almost there!"

My grandfather and I watched Mo Chen and Li Xin quarreling with a smile.

"You either sleep in class or stare out the window, right?" Li Xin picked up a photo with his fingers. It was of me leaning my head against the window and looking out the window.

"Well, just now in the spring, the view outside the window is particularly beautiful. When the wind blows, the petals of the peach trees fall all over the ground. The pink asphalt road is particularly beautiful. Haven't you noticed it?"